Mellisa McHaffie

Today is Tuesday, March 17th.

I keep waking up thinking this is all a dream and then I open my phone and realize it’s not. I didn’t have a good day yesterday or the day before. This is heavy shit. (Oh yeah, this might contain adult language. Again, sorry not sorry.)

I have seen so many people make fun of those that are scared or have no compassion for those out of work or feel that this isn’t their problem because the vulnerable should stay home. I am so sick and tired of being made fun of for my feelings. It may not be to my face, but if I’m worried, and all the rhetoric on one side has been that this is all ‘fake’ and to ‘relax’ and pretty much looking down on those that are worried. Is it because they have no empathy? Is it because they are scared too and the only thing they know to do is make fun of others and call people LibTards for buying toilet paper. (I could write a whole page on the TP debacle and for the record I have a freaking 4 pack, that’s it!!!) I find it interesting that those same people are hoarding the guns & ammo.

How is this our life and it’s literally only been a few days?! Jesus. We ALL have to calm down. Myself included. I will admit I am scared. Actually f’n terrified if I’m being honest here. I’m 44, an ex-smoker, a vaper (for the time being, but whatever, it’s my business!) and I’m single, living in a home by myself.

Check on your single friends!! We act tough, but we are probably not ok. I know having little ones at home is hard but I would do anything to have a little one to play with, love on, and distract me from our new reality.

It’s crazy the things that go through your head when you don’t have a ‘person’ to bounce stuff off of. If you have someone at home with you, appreciate the F*** out of that right now. Many people do not. Instead of worrying about stocks and money let’s focus on connection and Love. Instead of acting like this ‘isn’t your problem’ so you’re not going to get emotionally involved in the hype, maybe have compassion for those that are scared.

This is really just a test. A test to see how we deal under pressure. How are you dealing? I could post on Facebook a bunch of positive quotes and prayer hand emojis but instead I’m going to be real. Because does it really matter anymore?! I think it’s absolutely time to be authentic and seen. We can’t hide and pretend we are isolated. We will need each other to get through the next few months.

I am worried. I am worried for all the people that struggle with mental illness and think this looks like a good time to ‘check out’ (even though it absolutely isn’t!! But I can relate to those thoughts.) I am worried for my mom, anyone over 60 that is immune compromised, or that lives on the Standard American Diet. I am worried for my 101 almost 102 year old grandfather in Kentucky. Will this get to him? When can I hug someone again?

These are some of the thoughts in my head.

My focus today is going to be on Shining my Light instead of allowing myself to be upset by worrisome or shitty comments on FB or updates on CV19.

It is what it is right?! We can only control our attitudes about this. We can band together (figuratively & virtually of course) or we can pull apart. I want to band together. Obviously we must take care of ourselves and our families first and foremost. This break from our old reality can bring us together if we see it that way.

Like my favorite Angel used to say, “When you change the way you look at things, the things you look at change.” ~Wayne Dyer

Remember, this is a short term situation, and we have a choice in how we see it and react to it. Today I will be grateful for my freedom of choice and my health. (Knock on wood!!)

Be well,

Mellisa